They call me the seeker. Actually....no they don't. I'm called many other things ranging from the obvious to the esoteric, nothing so cool or specific. It is true though, I am a seeker. I seek knowledge on anything interesting that might pop up in my life. I seek understanding of this chaotic world and all of us, seemingly, brain-damaged apes that dominate it. That one often results in another type of seeking, that of peace/contentment/happiness/calmness/leave-me-the-hell-alone-for-just-30 minutes-but-don't-be-offended-I-still-care-ness. What's interesting is seeking knowledge can both help & hinder that 2nd type. But, it's all in how it's used, isn't it?
When I find some knowledge I think will be useful I hold it close; writing it down or sharing it with others I feel will benefit, continuing the age-old tradition of the oral story. (that's my story and I'm sticking to it) Though it sometimes bothers people who don't have time or patience to hear it. I try to keep my enthusiasm in check base on what I've learned.
When I seek the 2nd type I most of the time do NOT find what I'm looking for. (maybe call me Bono?) So, the result is finding just enough to make me less miserable with just small doses of order to fight the virus of chaos. It's a one side battle, ladies & gentlemen. Sometimes. I can't balance the world, so I try to balance myself and how I view things and, especially, how I deal with them.
The 3rd type I seek is rarely found, much like owl's teeth. When I do find it, whether within myself or with someone else, I try to hold on to it, cultivate it into something potential wonderful. I've been finding that more with other people, new friends I've met, and with my amazing (not a good enough word, really) girlfriend. Now, before you say "wait! you shouldn't look for such things only in others!" This is true. And I don't. However, by finding it in others it shines a light or starts a spark of something within me. What I have found in my seeking within others reminds me of things I've forgotten or once thought lost.
With all of that being said, I'm not done. Not by a long shot. I will always continue to seek under chairs, tables, in music, books, people, animals, plants, space or deep within my well lighted and/or heavily shadowed inner spaces.
