is that a tambourine?

As I enter deeper into my 3rd decade on Earth, I feel as though I've accomplished much...yet not enough. Some necessary changes are starting. They will be tough, there is no doubt of that. I've decided to cut back on my bi-polar meds for a variety of reason I won't get into, but I will say it is for good reasons....right reasons. Also, I finally got a part-time job to earn more $$$ to, hopefully, improve my financial situation. It's new. It's different. I am a fish out of water. I am the new guy. All completed opposite to my full-time job. I'm now averaging around 60-65 hours per week. My weeriness amazes me, I'm worn out, sleep deprived, tired, out on my feet, sore....oh you get the idea. Everyone around me from my fantastic girlfriend to my sister to my friends all think I can do this. Why can't I? I suppose, as with all new situations, there is be some time for adjustment. I just want that over, as of 2 weeks ago. haha. I'm looking, as ever, for that balance. It's like trying to tune a radio to a station but you don't know where it is on the dial. I know it's out there. That one song that I will know when I hear it. And here's the thing, no one can find it for me. Maybe guide me a bit or give slight direction. Only I know the melody. Only I understand the lyrics. As I keep pushing thru and pushing on, I will keep listening. Here's hoping I never go deaf.